with my life. because i’m going to need a better plan than forgetting how to be happy and crying everyday. even my parents are getting angry with me and i feel so fucking hopeless and overwhelmed whenever i try to make a plan. it appears to me i have no skills beyond wanting to be an artist and agreeing that i can’t afford to do so. fml wasted 5 years & $30,000 to be a failure after college, super duper
Ahh back from the craziness of New York and ready to finally start making moves. It’s been a full month since I graduated (eek!) and I’m getting antsy…I have big ideas and even bigger plans for my art but I’ve just been dancing around the tedious first steps that NEED to be taken to get the ball rolling. But fear not - something about the blur that was my first NYC experience shook me into motion and I’ve laid out a plan for my website, taken inventory of all the works that I need to photograph and have finally made a connection with an up-and-coming web designer who is going to help me with all the details of getting a site started up! I’m waiting to hear back from the shop but will hopefully start welding within the next few weeks and am also starting my blueprint reading class, a daunting task but necessary if I want to be able to do this welding job well..
Even though it’s a dreary Monday, and I missed my core conditioning class this morning (I decided that sleep was FAR more important than sweating at 8am after getting home at 2am) it’s been a super productive and motivating day…and it’s only 3! Added bonus: my hula hoop (from the lovely Hoop Mama’s) AND my zafu cushion both came in the mail while I was away this weekend. Can’t wait to start hooping & meditating. Sending my forward momentum and positivity to anyone who needs an extra push this week! xo
today is BEAUTIFUL. it’s drizzling and gray and a bit chilly outside but i feel like sunshine, happiness, and pure bliss is simply POURING out from every part of my body! this week has been extremely frustrating and creatively exhausting, with a mixture of a senioritis fuck school attitude & a i can’t make good art with all this pressure around me mindset. but all of this seems obsolete right now - when you surround yourself with people who make you happy, you elevate your confidence and general outlook on life so so much, i can’t say it enough. new friends and new experiences are always the pick me up i need, and people who make you feel beautiful and loved never hurt either :)
I hope everyone else is having a beautiful Thursday - i’ll be spreading my sunshine all around today. much much love <3
oh man sunday through today has been a WHIRLWIND of a week - creativity and art have been pouring out of me non-stop as i’m trying to crank out projects. i’m working on a 5 color screen print that i’m IN LOVE with, even though it’s kicking my ass so hard, and should be finished with that by sunday, and i poured 3 pieces in bronze today (a scratch mold & 2 wax pieces) all of which came out GORGEOUSLY. the only down side…i’ve completely neglected my french class and therefore am more than a bit fucked for my midterm tomorrow. shit :-/. but i really don’t care too much because while i’ve barely spoken to anyone outside of the art department i’ve been swimming in my creativity and its the most beautiful feeling ever, and i’ve missed it so much :) i’ll try to remember to post pictures of my finished work sometime next week in case anyone’s interested. but now, off to bed so i can get up at 6am to try and cram for my exam eek!
xoxo
